"D.H. Masters"

07:56 pm: Today, while at Dinner, my brother called me, informing me his best friend "Alex" died today.

What sucks is that it was because Alex apparently flipped out (went nuts) and attacked his brother....

His brother ended up killing Alex by a knife attack in defense.

It just fucking sucks.

Alex was NEVER like that

He was the wild and crazy guy. The kinda guy who you expect to appear at the door with a floorish and the studio audiance to clap (or the clap-machine to be activated) as he announces his latest wild and crazy plan to the audiance.

I honestly didn't know him all that well. He was my brothers best friend, part of a troublesome trio...

He was the first to acknowledge me as someone to play around with, not just as my older brother's younger brother.


I dunno how I feel. I guess... kinda lost.

I dont hate his brother, or his family.


Its just hard to understand what to think.


So I'll end off with this


When one such as you,
A daredevil true,
Falls towards the blackest time.
Know I do not blame,
or deem thee insane,
my sad old friend of mine.
I will wish thou the best,
see your soul pass the test.
and then...pray you have a good final rest.

Rest in Peace my wild and crazy friend, although you were my brother's best friend, you were also one of my first friends. I truely hope you found your peace at last.

Tags: friend, rip

11:11 am: Seeya Space Cowboy

Well, I might not chat alot on my blog, but I might as well state this.

It's offical. Toonami is dead. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0OEhzbX-q2c


This anime block has given me fond memories, some anime I never even expected to like appeared on that block..

Still all good things come to an end. Even if they started to die earlier as more and more anime left their block and reruns upon reruns were aired. I always hoped... well that the anime block I grew up with would return in full force...

Oh well.
 

Later Tom, Later Toonami.

Thanks for the memories
 

12:07 am: One-Armed Man returns!
Its been a good many weeks, and I've had my hardships... but for the most part the worst is over.

My jaw has mostly healed. Two weeks ago my wired jaw was freed, and last thursday I was discharged from my tooth doctor, with a small warning to take it easy and eat soft foods.

My arm is mostly healed... bow to my healing factor of youth!

Now to get my wrist to move again.



more as it updates.

Tags: car crash, healing

11:45 am: carcrash one-hand typing!
While heading to school one dark and dreary morn,
the control of my  friends car came undone.
We swerved and skidded, trying to gain controll...

alas as you can tell... the tale ends not-so-well..


for i awake in a blithering daze, unable to fathom this dreary haze.



I'll stop my rhyme as im not so good and be blunt. I was in a carcrash last wednesday. I have a major fractutre above my right arm... and a cracked jaw.


I'll admit it hurts.....ALOT but i'll deal....

just thought to let ya know.

Tags: crar-crash

12:23 pm: School Updates
Here I thought I could avoid this site... but I guess its about the only place I can speak when no one seems to listen.

I dont know what to do, considering my job is all but dying (its only lasting due to my constant missing work) hell I dont know what to do.

Yep. I'm loosing my job. Whoopty fucking due.

I'm just so fucking tired. In pain, tired and exhausted.

I'm afraid I'm going to fail out of school

WHY CANT I CONCENTRAITE ON SCHOOL AS I CAN ON MY CLUB WORK!!!!

...I guess I'm just fucking patheitc...

nm

05:27 pm: Introduction and a fanfic
Okay, so maybe its been a while since I posted

Here's a treat then

A new fanfic Im dabbling on


The basic idea is.... "What would happen if the "Battle for King" in Gash's time resulted in the demons merged with the humans.

So I now present you with the first chapter of "Konjiki no Takamine Kiyomaro" (working title)

feedback appreciated.

01:51 pm: update...maybe
I'd update but my time on computer is limited.

Just letting you know my computers dead..

Oh yeah an Idea Im working on..

___________________________

Magical Sensei Evangeline

Story idea: Instead of passing his courses in Mahou

Acadamy, it became apparent that his magicks were far

too unstable; sometimes out of no-where he was able to

gain near infinate strength that quickly overwhelmed most of his teachers, embarassed his female classmates and teachers alike. Thus he was sent to learn under the oldest magic user known to magic kind, the Dark Evangel; Evangeline.

- Evangeline is now free from "School Hell" so long as

she has her teaching licence and is with her student.

- She forces Negi to join the class under the name of

Nagi.

Negi's powers still are random, and can cause great

chaos.

Negi could become a magician or a magic swordsmen. it all depends on how things go. Its likely he wont learn Ku Fei's chinese arts?


(Dirrect from my notepad.)

Tags: rushing

11:28 pm: --; Im getting really bad at updating aren't I

First off.

I passed CINS-141

Tests= 6/10-9/10
Midterm= B
Final= C

Total Grade= B

So thats one thing off my shoulders...

Now comes the bad news...

I dont know if I will pass english... Im getting hit upside the head and can't write for the life of me. Seriously, last time I tried to write it ended up as more of a rant then anything else.

...

Oh yeah, heres the point where I actually got a job (or at least I think so I got a W-4 from the place so I think I have a job)

but one little catch.

Im on Academic probation.

If I fail a SINGLE CLASS... my Finacial Aid will be canceled.

My work study will be cancled

thereby... my job will be canceled and I will be fired


Irony is a B(tch isn't it

02:12 pm: To Rachel, if she reads this.
Keep in mind Rachel, Im under alot of stress right now. I have reasons for my thoughts.

I really dont want to discontinue the relationship, we haven't really had much time since this relationship started

(Four years are all when we were good friends.)

I dont want to end the hope that we might happen. Just give me some space to get my head in order.

Mom's near hospital-visit kinda does that to ya.


(I couldn't post this as an add on to my earlier entry)

Tags: continuation

09:44 pm: To every good... an evil must occur.
How shall I begin this entry, Im not even sure about that.

My mind is too scattered.

1) My mom might end up in the hospital if she doesn't calm down soon, right now her blood pressure is through the roof, Quite litterally Im terrified for her life. You know what hurts most? I can't help. I can't councel it, nor can I go pick up something from the market for her... she's litterally got WAY too much occuring.

She has three jobs, a house eating a sizeable amount of money from her pocket, and idiot son who can't stay awake in class and another piranah from the Divorce still biting her in the ass. Its a wonder she's not clincly insane.

That idiot son? Thats me.

CADD-103. I liked the subject, well not really. I found out that according to the Workforce Training center (the nice little clinic that tests little boys/girls in varrious feilds till they find where you fit in) that apparently thats the career that is tailor made for me. Well it isn't. Im never THAT exact, I can barely even remeber half the tools in AUTOCAD! I fall asleep half the time. I feel so ashamed. I failed Rachel (my non-told promise that I would be able to impress her with something I can do) I failed my family and most of all my self.

I never fit in the class.

I passed by a prayer last time, I belived I was doing perfectly only to find I was maintaining a LOW "D". Kinda a big bite in the ass.

Okay, now lets add in my sleeping habits have returned. THOSE habits. The ones in which I will pass out for no bloody reason. The same habits that nearly had me in the hospital and suspected of having Hypoclemic Periodic Paralysis. The one in which I pass out for no bloody reason and its only ME who can wake myself up and not anyone else. Where I can fall asleep in any position no matter how uncomfertable.

I might as well shoot myself in the hand and try and help the slow killing of my life.


on the other side...

I might have a job, I applied at the media center in CCBC so I could try and get a job around SOMETHING I know. No word on if they CAN take me in but its all I got to hope for.



Now lets bring myself to chat bout Rachel.

How do I feel about her?

I dont know.

I like her, sure. But I dont know if thats love or just friendship.

Im kinda scared honestly.

When we first chatted our calls went for two hours... now they barely last thirty minutes.

Thats if we can talk.

Either Im too busy, or she's too busy.


About my earlier point. To be honest, Im afraid I'm starting to try and replace "Jennifer E." with "Rachel B" if you get my meaning.

I'm honestly scared...

I dont know if Im making right choices or not.



GAH! HEADACHE!!!!!!!

off to take some tylonal

@_x

Tags: update

07:40 am: Sick, but in good spirits.
Looks like Im back to sparatic updates to my live journal, oh well...

Firstly, I am very comforted to know Rachel got her gift, you can't even belive how many times I was afraid I sent it to the wrong place or she wouldn't be to thrilled with it. To think, it was a dream that helped me remeber to send it last Friday...

Oh yeah, the day before yesterday was the day I caught a cold. Only reason Im able to write my LJ is because I had to stay home today for the sheer embarassment I went through yesterday trying to deal with it in classes...

I had to vannish mid-way through CINS-141 (my favorite class) because my cold had gotten too bad.

Side note. I HATE Halls! Especially the mint type.

they taste yucky (Yep, I now accept myself enough to act childish!)

On the Writing stand point...

Im getting ideas on OTHER stories outside of my Jihad Diaries, in fact... Im considering a fanfic for Ben10 in which Ben and Gwen have to deal with one-another without Grandpa Max and also avoid the Government who's out for Ben's Omnitrix.

The other one is an IGPX fic that follows the series (battles are much the same) yet, the relationship between Liz, Takashi, Amy and Fontine is captitalized and causes all sorts of FUN.

On Yugioh stand point...

I have added SpellBinding Circle, Sakuretsu Armor, and replaced LV5 Dragon with Millenium Scorpian.

It's inproved my game alot more!


oh yeah, club news.

I am now a Squire in M.F.S club, and the Knight I am affliated to is John (still have yet to figure out his last name)

Thats the basic things going on now.

I go back to sleep. Coughing all the time is no fun.

Tags: update

10:04 pm: Wrong Number?
This is four times in a row I've tried to call Rachel (in a row as meaning in days), and it would seem that her Dorm number is now a male message machine.

Strange.

I really hope my brother didn't mess with my phone --;

Argh, confusion!

Tags: phone

09:40 am: Snow, Snow... We have Snow!
Yep, that right, we now have snow. Alot of it.

Although Im not as pleased as I should be...

I hope this doesn't spoil my job interveiw tommarow..

oh yeah..


If there is someone on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

(not saying who. As for why? Dont have time.)

Time to shovel. Yay --;

Tags: snow

02:41 pm: Glimpse into the mind.
A glimpse into my mind as I write what I think in English class.

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Apprently the word "You" is not allowed, despite the fact that "You" has been used more then "34" times by my count in her lecture. More "You" have appeared in the lecture. I predict she will use the word "You" at least "50" more times by the end of the lecture.

Yes, I know. "You" is a general word that is for both sigular and plural audiances, but the problem is often writers want the READER to pay attention to what is being writen. I mean whats the purpose of ignoring the word "You." Is the word "You" so offensive that it must be writen out for big words that have no reason of usage as many other words. "You" "Very" "Much" are all words in the dictionary despite our apparent limitation and censorships. Amazing isn't it. "She" "He" "You" "Them" "They" "We" are all pronouns, and while some of them are blocked alot in our schools and lingo. . . they DO have a reason after all. It all depends on their usage. . .Yet it would seem we are not allowed to use the word "You."

-- "You" have got to be kidding me. ^^

Oh boy, here goes the whole draft thing. I mean no offense, but we are yelled at to be original but we MUST be uniform. Whats that all about? I mean. . . As writers your told to try and follow a formula like all others. So were not allowed to be ourselves!|

--; Im starting to wonder if we are EVER going to get the bloody assignement!!!!

I normally write fanfiction; stories based upon other writer's creations. Yes I know, it is using someone elses creations and not my own. Its better then me just stealing their characters and not paying homitage and saying they are mine.

WHAT IS THE BLOODY ASSIGNEMENT! I don't want to place this assignement on my "Will do later" pile, I just want to do my bloody assignement. I've been waiting for the assignment, but it would seem we are going to get DOUBLE assignements because the way it would seem essay one is going to be given NEXT BLOODY WEEK! Im getting frustrated. I mean, I would appreciate her advice if I actually knew what I had to do.


Okay, so now I have POLITICAL essay to do.

I hate you so much Murphy.
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*Edited* More lovely comments added
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Tags: college

09:30 am: Current Yugioh Deck: Custom BeatDown
My current Yugioh! Deck consists of....

Monsters
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3x Gemini Elf
2x Marauding Captain
2x Luster Dragon
Insect Knight
Indomitable Fighter Lei Lei
Diffrent Diemention Warrior Lady
Total Defense Shogun
Exiled Force
Breaker the Magical Warrior
Mirage Dragon
Armed Dragon LV5
Summon Skull
Goblin Attack Force
Night Assailant
Mask of Darkness
Spirit Reaper

Trap
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Bottemless Trap Hole
Threatening Roar
Waboku
Magic Jammer
Raigeki Break
Draining Sheild
Dust Tornado
Torrential Tribute
Seven Tools of the Bandit
Interdiementional Matter Transporter
Call of the Haunted

Spell
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Nobelman of Crossout
Mystical Space Typhoon
Heavy Storm
Premature Burial
Lightning Vortex
Fissure
Dark Hole
Book of Moon
Snatch Steal
Malevolent Nuzzler


Dunno why I posted my deck... I just decided to.

...gotta go soon...

well, yesterday was supose to be my day to relax but well... I relaxed alot and then drank three cans of Mountain Dew. I couldn't fall asleep till five this morning. Tired.

Must sleep...

Sleep good...

zzzzzzzzzzzz

Tags: yugioh

11:31 am: And thus the annoying one levels up!
Well, here it is folks, today is my day of birth.

So far I have had general annoyances

- My mom got a letter informing her that more money is taken away from he to my dad. Error in goverment!

- My mom was not paying attention and drove her car over the side of the road.

- Her tire blew out. Majorly so.

- She's now driving my car. --;

So fun stuff. And ya know was? the day's barely over.

Looks like no birthday celebration the way things are going.

01:32 am: Nightly update
Wow, I thinking Im going for a record in enteries! (at least for me)

Well, my three subject day began pretty damn well.

My CINS-101 teacher is infact the Admin allie we of the Anime Club, and M.F.S owe our club's continued existance to. He's a nice guy, I mean he himself scoffed at the "NO DRINKING" policy by taking a big gulp from his Soda. I know the class will be hard, much harder then my previous class... yet I don't care. I think Im ready for it. At least I wont fall asleep.

My English-101 teacher is morbid as hell. She made some jokes even I don't wish to repeat. Yep, she ment it in satirical form, but I'd rather not think of dead aunts, uncles, Grandmothers and fathers. (even though I know she ment in excuses people give) thank you very much. I got lost in thought to my Great Aunt Carlotta (sorely missed) that I could barely pay attention. The fact my grandparent's aren't in the best of health made it that much worse for me. Im kinda not looking forward to being in her class honestly.

My CINS-141 teach... well... I can't really say much on things. I know she's a programer and works part time in a college ferm, but quite litterally my mind wasn't thinking too nicely to the point I kinda had to bite my lip to keep it on track. Lets just say my mind was in the gutter for no bloody reason... seriously I dont know why...argh. Either way, you can guess Im VERY embarassed bout it. Bad male mind! no anime for you! Getting back to topic, I'm seriously hoping this class will help me gain more knowledge in computers and making/fixing them. If I do well... I will take the other half and then go for my A+ certification. Lets hope I do well.

Aside from this, Apparently my friends have decided to host some sort of "Gauntlet" with Yugioh! Cards on my B-day. Suposibly it is supose to be never ending duels against everyone's best decks untill I can beat SOMEONE

okay, Im almost bout to fall alseep in keybowrd

Oh Rachel-chan... please get well soon ne?

Night all.

Tags: school

05:01 am: ????
I don't know what happend last night but apparently Im still a tad bit sick. Why? I have no clue, but as soon as I got home I passed out before I could even start a decent conversation.

Me thinks Im sick.

Lovely way to find out --;

Rachel-chan, if you see this. Sorry bout my weird message last night. I couldn't even really type on my laptop before I passed out.

Hopefully I can write a better entry later.

07:35 pm: Sleepyness = School?
Apparently, it would seem my eyes are getting a tad worse. If it weren't for the fact that I have promised myself that I WILL NOT SCREW up, I would have passed out without much a care in the CADD Class I was in.

Beh. Too tired.

Me thinks I need an eye-appointment very soon. (my glasses no longer work to my benifit)

02:54 am: Nocturnal Behavior?
Okay, excuse my idioicy, but since when do dogs apprently start invading spaces in the 'whee' times of the morning?

Apparently my brother's bitching woke me up, and now Im trying to deal with a dog who for no bloody reason is attempting to go downstairs to the point of CRYING.

- I JUST WANNA SLEEP ;_;